Filed under: Challenging week & New Dynamic ahead

First of all I would like to thank all the people that took the time to read my first blog. Furthermore, I appreciate greatly all of those who commented and/or complimented it. It really brought new and known sensations to me while writing it and after reading the reactions it caused to the people around me. 

As the evening and day comes to an end and looking back over the past week of what has happened, I take a pause and reflect how sometimes or maybe many times in life daily activities can just overtake you. Nonetheless, this specific week for me was an important one considering that I knew for quite sometime that it was going to be my last week with Alex for most of the time since my divorce. Have to admit that spending most of the days with him really gave and expanded my view of life and the way I connected with him and the people around me. 

So many times, we often hear our parents, friends or people in general say how important is to live for the present and value what you have. But behind those words, there is a conscious and an emotional process that it is only perceived and processed in your whole being once you get to live the actual experience at that specific moment in time. Even though I prepare myself mentally for this moment, have to admit that emotionally I was not.

I am conscious that this emotional process of understanding the benefits of having a shared custody (every other week) and not having Alex will take time. Rationally, I know I have understood and identified the positive things of this situation and that I just need to give life and my emotional reactions settle down since it will take time. Focusing on the positive and enjoying the time while having him WILL be my major task. Processing the emotional reactions and connecting consciously my rationale with it will be my major task during the time I do not have him. 

As I left him today with his mom and looking at him happy and smiling I knew everything will be fine. Alex has and will have the best of the two worlds and both his parents. I am calm and feel grateful I have this opportunity even though my ideals are not completely fulfilled. I guess that as many things in life, once again it is about making the best of what life gives you.. right? It is all about the process of adaptation :-)

One of the positive things for this next week is that I will still pick him up for school and spend few hours with him :-) but each week will definitely be different.

In the meantime, I keep his laugh and smile in my memory and heart! while I go to sleep and until I see him to fuel my life again.

Till the next post! Keep on smiling and enjoying life

Cheers,

Vic

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